I didn't go to church today. That's kind of a big deal for the family because we've been here before. This isn't the first time I've been run off from the ministry and the family, which was smaller at the time by one, quit going to church for a time then too. It was just too hard to go for the sake of going and God hadn't given us anyone to minister to and no one was there to talk us through our pain. It's a little like now, but I'm still praying for God to give us an individual or family that we can bring through something.
This afternoon I'm also watching the new Count of Monte Cristo with Jim Caviezel. Jill and I cried as Caviezel and Richard Harris talk as the old priest is dying from the tunnel cave in. The priest tells Edmond not to waste the rest of his life on revenge because of God's plan for his life. Edmond states that he doesn't believe in God. The dying priest says,"It doesn't matter, God believes in you."
So that's what I hold on to today. I have struggled often lately, but it doesn't matter. God believes in me. Biblical of not, just what I needed to hear.